2024 has made my life miserable
Okay, so I finally styled my blog which took about 2 hours 😭🙏 Now I will proceed to write as quickly as possible because I need to let this out soo bad,.,.,.
2024 started fine, I was mostly okay. But as summer break hit, my depression had gone worse. I constantly belittled myself, started checking my weight more often, freaked out more than I used to, I've also started talking to less of my friends because I've become really busy which is making me forget to reply/DM people. There is a lot more I guess, but basically I'm just mentally tired.
This year, I'm finally taking school in-person after 2 years of online learning. (AKA Not learning anything, basically skipping grades and barely passing) So I'm struggling a bit with specifically math, but I'm hoping I can get through it somehow. But, my teachers (except one 😭🙏) are really nice, so I don't feel completely upset at school. But I also got new friends, (who I don't talk to too often) which also leads me to a point where I think my IRL friends are starting not to like me for some reason. I'm usually eating lunch alone, (Unless I ASK someone 🙁) which is I guess fine because I can go to the plaza quicker and chill more... But I barely talk to anybody at school anymore, so fuck bro!!!!!!! I am so glad it is almost winter break
I also have to delay a lot of my projects because of how busy or unmotivated I get. It makes me feel terrible,,, which makes me more unmotivated..!!! I have to do 2 things before Christmas and do my school work, then when I'm done the things I have a deadline on, I have to work on a whole bunch of other stuff.
I hope that whatever life I'm living right now improves because I am literally just feeling miserable every time I wake up, and before I go to bed.😭🙏
Okay, on a more positive note now;
I have absolutely amazing friends that have supported me whenever this dumb ass shit happens to me. Shout out to everyone in Pizza Hut for being real ones. Even though I may have lost some friends, I've also gain some back. (or one, I don't remember lmao) I'm improving in my hobbies, and I'm already decent in coding sites now. (New top hobby for me) (My friends, you should make a personal site on nekoweb.org!!!) I'm also learning new language yipppie (にゃん～)
I will try to work on improving myself to be a better friend and person in general to all of you! 🥺🍀
I hope you've had a great 2024 unlike me!